when i was younger deviant art was my life and my purpose when i first started out for the first 3 years. i did everything i could to get myself up the art chain so i could draw more and spread my artwork across deviantart so i could have more talented artists draw for me and i would get the blessing to be able to draw their unique characters. i focused so much on drawing, commenting, posting, talking, drawing, learning, practicing, drawing, improving, drawing. I barely had any friends and a super controlling bf so i spent all my time here merely improving my artwork and befriends many many artists. while also always constantly staring at my pageview bar every single day cause i knew back then that if you had a lot of views (even if you werent that good at drawing) you would have butt loads of artists swarm to you wanting to do AT's. i studied DA and learned from it. it became my project. i entered countless contests to earn premium to help aid in my little project. I started redefining my characters personalities and backgrounds to my liking hoping to spread them around in merry glee. stalking amazing artists and the sorts finding anything i could commission with the little points i had

but now as im older and my artist drive to maintain any social structure here has dwindled down to the very lowest standard i find it ironic. now that i rarely come on her, post art, or communicate i get many more watchers and people trying to talk to me as i had tried to do so very long ago. its sad to say but DA is no longer my passion. when i got premium from an old won contest it barely phased the me now when the old me would of went banana's. i have to face the facts. i dont love deviantart as much as i used to back then. this doesnt mean im going to give up on it right away or anything. ill still try to upload art every now and again. but im also saying there may be periods of time were im completely gone. hmm. well this is all, i just wanted to express what was on my mind